Ang mga nakaraan. Pasulyap-sulyap sa mga friendster accounts ng mga kung sino-sinong past significant. Whether you're significant to them or not is NOT the matter anymore. Of course hindi! asa ka pa. Mahirap din naman ang bad habit na ito. Pero sige pa rin ako, para saan pa ang internax, ika nga. Hayun pag may updated picture, konting kaba dito, konti na lang ma-hahum ko na ang Donna Cruz's shada-dadaaaa classic. At iyan ang minsan hindi ko alam kong bakit ganoon pa rin ang aking maramdaman. Isa itong phenomenon. Likas sa ating pagkatao ang feelings . Hindi pala ako robot, if there is any consolation. But of course, there is this firm resolve na it is never going to happen anymore. Balikan..if it heals you then it must be good.
Ang mga sinumang nakasakit sa iyo. Hindi naman ako mananakit ng tao pero parang ganoong level na rin. Isa ata ito sa mga New Year's Resolutions ko. I just want to rip off their innards. Not the Hannibal-type style pero it is really but a nice feeling. Ano naman daw ang makukuha ko diyan kong sisingilin ko sila, madrama naman daw at waste of time, sabi ng mga critics ko. Instead, be positive and channel your energy to other things, dagdag pa ng mga little miss sunshines. Maybe they're thinking of this "bukas, luluhod ang mga tala" thing which can be quite energy-consuming. Mahirap naman daw ang karma. The funny thing is I do not believe in Karma! I do not intend it to be cheesy. Time will take me there. So paano? balikan lang yung mga taong nakasakit sa iyo, you revisit them and create a big moment with them. razzle dazzle them at your standards. make them feel sorry for they have left you. Make them feel you are such a big loss. and at the apex of moments, you disappear. Yes, I am the disappearing.
Ang mga nakagawian tulad ng paglalaro ng badminton. I sometimes imagine when i perspire hard, aside from it is but a salt, it is also a toxin. Ang sarap ng feeling ng sobrang pawis and the afterglow of course. My badminton buddies are in Kenya however so three weeks absent na rin ako sa court. Marami na din namang friendships na nabuo sa court. Like this cute guy na na nakapang-basketball na first time daw niya mag laro, hayun nagmukha pa akong tutor. Like this first year high school na pinaikot-ikot ako. Dami na ding mga gays sa badminton court at mind you, mga Amazona talaga sila. There is this so insecure gay and nakalaban pa namin, gusto ko ng i-smash yung mukha niya dahil daming gestures, maingay, at patalo na rin kami. pero grabe, kulang na lang lumipad siya. Siyempre nanalo sila. Do not worry if bones ache, that's the harder part, kulang lang sa warm-up. But Badminton is both a mind and physical game. Unlike tennis, there is so much force, badminton is an intellectual game. Also it helps when you get to be agile din.